Oct 13, 2008

My Heavy Hearted Day

"Moses went out unto his brethren, and looked on their burdens." Exodus 2:11

Moses saw the oppression of his people and felt certain that he was the one to deliver them, and in the righteous indignation of his own spirit he started to right their wrongs. After the first strike for God and for the right, God allowed Moses to be driven into blank discouragement, He sent him into the desert to feed sheep for forty years. At the end of that time, God appeared and told Moses to go and bring forth His people, and Moses said - "Who am I, that I should go?" In the beginning Moses realized that he was the man to deliver the people, but he had to be trained and disciplined by God first. He was right in the individual aspect, but he was not the man for the work until he had learned communion with God.

We may have the vision of God and a very clear understanding of what God wants, and we start to do the thing, then comes something equivalent to the forty years in the wilderness, as if God had ignored the whole thing, and when we are thoroughly discouraged God comes back and revives the call, and we get the quaver in and say - "Oh, who am I?" We have to learn the first great stride of God - "I AM THAT I AM hath sent thee." We have to learn that our individual effort for God is an impertinence; our individuality is to be rendered incandescent by a personal relationship to God (see Matthew 3:17). We fix on the individual aspect of things; we have the vision - "This is what God wants me to do;" but we have not got into God's stride. If you are going through a time of discouragement, there is a big personal enlargement ahead.


My husband encouraged me gently and tenderly today.....through my lonely time and place of solitude. After an emotional breakdown...which I trust the Lord enough to have authentically and transparently (translation: full blown MELT-DOWN).....I am refreshed and renewed...and move forward in new found hope and trust.

Daniel 2:20

"Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever;
wisdom and power are his.

21 He changes times and seasons;
he sets up kings and deposes them.
He gives wisdom to the wise
and knowledge to the discerning.

22 He reveals deep and hidden things;
he knows what lies in darkness,
and light dwells with him.



Anonymous said...

I'm with you...thank you for sharing that encouragement. That situation we were facing in May/June, we are now facing again.



Chapter Two Manmi said...

I've been reading your blog for a little while; came here from Cate's which I found through Haitian adoption network. I am mama to three children from Haiti (ages 11, 9, 6). We've been home together almost a year. I find blogs very interesting and I often learn from others through their sharing. I clicked over here today to find a message I so need today. We're dealing with a crisis bigger than us but not our God who called us to this life of 5 through adoption. Thank you for sharing it. I don't know what your source of difficulty is but God used it to be a source of encouragement to me, a complete stranger. Isn't that a mystery?
God bless you,
K at Chapter Two

Susan G said...

Thank you for your honesty!!! I'm praying for you!

Brenda said...

I think parenting kids with RAD can be a very lonely job. ((((((((hugs)))))))) We are never alone.

familygregg said...

Brenda, you are so sweet. This issue has nothing to do w/my girlie.

But it does have to do with relational trouble...and I am heartbroken. I covet the prayers of anyone who is so led.

For the Lord to break through...and for Him to make a way.

familygregg said...

Thanks everyone. Really, prayer is everything right now.

Brenda said...

That I can do